Where Has the Time Gone

"Vacations mean a change of pace, a gentleness with ourselves, a time for rest and renewal. "

Dear Elloise,
Boy has it been a while huh? I have been a wee bit busy. We welcomed in our #2 grand and I have to say; It was a whole pile of chaotic greatness. The Hot Hub and I didn’t sleep in the same bed for 4 days. We barely saw each other. We didn’t eat right. Hardly slept. But seeing that little bundle come into the world made it all worth it. We got some good quality time with our sweet G too.

What is it about seeing your own kids thriving in their own lives that makes a girl pause and reflect so much? I hope it’s not me feeling old because I definitely don’t feel that way. I am recharged in such a huge way right now. That might be due to the week I had AFTER the baby arrived though.

My sis showed up for us in a pretty huge way. She came and took care of the entire damn farm so we could be down south to welcome that new bundle earthside. Chickens, house, FOUR dogs. She barely even complained. (JK - but I know she was ready to have some human companionship when we finally returned home.)

We spent a week of lounging in the pool, working on nothing but our tans and we crafted. It was glorious. I also realized that I hadn’t had downtime like that in a VERY long time. AND…that I needed to do that more often.

How much has my mental health suffered from my never ending to do lists and thinking that business = successful living?

Something to ponder…while I float in the pool.

I am unsure where that part of me came from. I do recall, even when I was MUCH younger that I always had projects, task lists that I was working on check marking off. I always had a “big dream” list too. What classes to take next semester, where I was going to college, where I would live ect. I had a list of names for future pets…and children. Places I wanted to visit. Books to read. I always had a journal and more importantly, I was always dreaming. Is this a quality that is taught? Learned? Is it some weird genetic thing? I have the genetics of a list maker!!!

These past few weeks, I have felt what it would be like to simply do the things that I love without a schedule. Without obligations. That freedom is what I now crave. I wish to loll about reading books simply for the joy of reading words that others create. I desire a space where I can step out to the Craft Cottage whenever the mood and creativity strikes without the pressure of deadlines. I want to relax my way through time in the kitchen….and joyously tend to the garden without the worry of outside obligations pulling me away. Freedom. That is what I wish to manifest in my life Elloise.

So Mote it Be.

Love,
S